[{"id":"bf351f5","elType":"section","settings":{"structure":"22"},"elements":[{"id":"5718e04","elType":"column","settings":{"_column_size":66,"_inline_size":null},"elements":[{"id":"4fba2d6","elType":"widget","settings":{"editor":"<p>Some days i want to write and thats as far as i get. The want. I spend around 75% of my time wanting to write, researching and making notes; which leaves me 25% of free time to sit down in my office to actually write, right?<\/p>\n<p>\u00a0<\/p>"},"elements":[],"widgetType":"text-editor"},{"id":"abf738d","elType":"widget","settings":{"title":"WRONG.","align":"center"},"elements":[],"widgetType":"heading"},{"id":"d6cb7b1","elType":"widget","settings":{"editor":"<p><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: var( --e-global-color-text ); font-family: var( --e-global-typography-text-font-family ), Sans-serif;\"><br><\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"color: var( --e-global-color-text ); font-family: var( --e-global-typography-text-font-family ), Sans-serif;\">As a crumbling human being i'm already beating my head against the nine to five trivia of feeling ill equipped to survive, let alone forcing myself to word wrangle when i feel...you know... ill equipped. &nbsp;<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;Onwards we must push, nevertheless. You understand -- you have to too. So instead of me pouring my black heart out this evening, theres a little light at the end of the tunnel i wanted to share. The tiny success that pushed me to keep on writing. Small victories you understand.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;I don't come from the heart of money - i know people inclined that way and they are the poorest people i ever had the misfortune to meet. Either way I'm not built to want it, to crave it or discern how the hell i start making the bucks that'll line my coffers with rims of steel and gold. It matters not. I never went wanting, but i dreamed of all the things money couldn't buy. I tell you this only so the following has a little more power than it would otherwise.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;The personal essay i had published a week ago so far made my poorman pocket $0.08 richer. In the grand scheme of things it may seem a tuppance --- hell not even! But to the man with nothing, well, i'm doing pretty damn well. A couple of coppers, i got 'em but i have a lot more than that. So to date my writing as earned me a 100 pounds sterling, feelings of shame and deceit -- along with my mere 8 American cents.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><\/p>"},"elements":[],"widgetType":"text-editor"}],"isInner":false},{"id":"ed63a9e","elType":"column","settings":{"_column_size":33,"_inline_size":null},"elements":[{"id":"f34219b","elType":"widget","settings":{"image":{"url":"https:\/\/www.bellaeflynn.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/11\/20211103_124804-scaled.jpg","id":5662,"alt":"","source":"library"}},"elements":[],"widgetType":"image"}],"isInner":false}],"isInner":false}]